The comments of sister Debbie & Diana on my opening audio announcing my journey to our Sacred Kabaah, caused me to write this quick post.
Sister Debbie Al-Harbi commented:
Salaam Alaikum, Dear Sister Ponn. I want to know the feelings of praying at the Kabaah. Tell us your emotions as you go through your journey Hajj. All my love, Sister Debbie.
Wa-alaykum asalam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu dear Sister Debbie. There are no words to fully express what it was like praying at the Kabaah, subhanallah, Glory is to Allah. The only true feeling I had when I was in sujood at every single prayer in the Masjid al-Haram was ‘I just wanted to die and return to our Lord & Creator.’
I felt an immense amount of happiness, fulfillment, peace, safety, security, and pleasure. It’s an undescribable feeling, to be SO happy that anyone would want to die; but as I tried to explain to my girls in a non-depressing way–I just felt that everything is good, right, nothing-is-wrong, and so IF my sins are forgiven for making this Hajj, and I am granted a Hajj Mabror (accepted & completed Hajj) by Our Lord, than please Oh Allah, take me now–pure and innocent as a baby.
However, once I sat up from that first sujood, I returned for the next sujood and begged that I’d return to my girls; so together my husband and I can come back with them for Umrah. I wanted to impart all that I learned, all that I gained, and all that I experienced with my girls.
Alhumdulilah, Praise be to Allah, Half my du’a was answered, in that I returned to my girls; and inshaAllah, we are working our way back to our most Sacred House. Ya Rabb. Ameen.
The next comment was from Diana Grant. She said:
This is a very heart warming message from you Ponn… I admire you for your good deeds and hope for your success in your journey.
MashaAllah, mashaAllah, mashaAllah, God has willed, all that I am; and all that I pray to be as His true servant. My actions and words come from Him alone, so please dear Diana, come praise Him and Only Him as I do, beg for His forgiveness and stay true to His straight path. Ya Rabb Ameen.
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